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Mridu's avatar

Be it disability or be it grief, most of the world doesn’t know what to do with it- so true- and I’ve learnt silently showing up is best we can do ♥️

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Yes, showing up is the best we can do and I think all that is asked of us.

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Charulatha Banerjee's avatar

Such eloquence and clarity even in writing about a painful personal experience. Much food for thought on the choice of words - I work in Jharkhand with blind children and each time I have to write about them I hesitate on choice of descriptor. You have given me now a way to think about it. Thank you for sharing so much of your pain and grief- wishing for you moments of calm and joy.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thank you, Charulatha for you le wishes for calm and joy for me - two things I am actively working on cultivating. I know what you mean about the struggle for the right descriptor - these words barely reflect the overall story. Thank you for reading with so much attention and kindness as always ❤️

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Harry's avatar

Such a heart-rending article. To be able to put what you are feeling into words, takes a lot of courage. And you have spades of it. Thank you for sharing!

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Dear Harry, thank you for this supportive and lovely comment ❤️❤️

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Raju Tai's avatar

Thank you, Binu. Something about your writing is tearing through me in the best way possible. The directness of it. Calling a spade a spade while holding so many nuances and stories together. 💘

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Raju ❤️🤗🤗, learnt to write dil se alongwith and from you.

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Ila Reddy's avatar

Beautiful write-up Binu, one of my favourite pieces by you. ❤️

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Dear Ila thank you ❤️❤️

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Karthik's avatar

Firstly, thank you for writing this. Your courage is inspiring! I am a better person by knowing Sakshi through your writings. And this essay is so brilliant! I enjoyed going along on all the paths this one takes.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Dear Karthik, thank you so much for your lovely message. ❣️.I am so grateful that I get to share Sakshi's glorious light and wit with you and others.

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Rakhi Kurup's avatar

Much love to you Binu. Take care.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thank you Rakhi ❤️

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Nihil's avatar

This is beautiful, Binu. Thank you for sharing these raw and thoughtful reflections. Your words about cushioning hard realities with gentler language touched me. There's such truth in wrestling with both sides—the human desire to soften painful things and the need to face reality. By sharing your journey with such openness, you've made me think more deeply about how we talk about loss and suffering.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thanks Sid for reading and this lovely, thoughtful message. I am learning to be gentler with the world, and in the process with myself. Still learning...

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Sana Ally's avatar

May you continue writing and healing, one word at a time! May we continue to witness and learn.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Dear Sana, thank you for holding space for my words in your life.❤️

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Priya Vikram's avatar

This post articulates the dilemma on what words to use and with whom so well! Looking forward to the next part.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thank you Priya ❤️. part 2 should be out in a few weeks... slow, slow, slow writer :)

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Sailakshmi's avatar

This moved me so much Binu. Using your words to share your emotions and the memories around Sakshi's struggles with us must have brought you a lot more of peace, healing and balance. Thank you for being so considerate always and making us think of others like you do!

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Dear Sai, thanks for being such a source of support. Writing this post was harder than usual, because I had to find the balance between speaking my truth and not being a bull in a china shop.

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Payal Talreja's avatar

This post requires courage. Both from you and the reader.

Words also help us to find solace, perhaps by helping us pin down what we feel about things.

I’m sorry for your loss, and I’m sorry that your family suffered this pain. In some small way, perhaps, words also help us lighten the burden of grief.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thanks for reading Payal. Writing has always been a source of solace, and a way to understand my own feelings and thoughts. So it does ease the pain every time I write. And yes, reading my posts can be triggering and I have lost a few readers, but also gained many more who are willing to face uncomfortable emotions. I am deeply grateful to every one of you.

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Alaknanda Sengupta's avatar

Binu this is one of your best, for me. To be able to put these thoughts down, to be able to describe in words these memories, to be able to be still want to be considerate to others - this humbles me. You have covered both sides of this difficult argument brilliantly - the lets cut the crap one and the lets say it softly one. Would love to know what Abhishek said about this!❤️❤️

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thanks Alaknanda ❤️. I am learning to be comfortable in the grey and not insist on black or white. Abhishek was very encouraging in his feedback.

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Prakash Karunakaran's avatar

Amazing, more power and courage to you Binu.

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thank you Prakash for reading :). much appreciated.

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Ayush's avatar

This was amazing, Binu. For its courage and clarity 💜

Always moved when I read you

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thank you Ayush. That is a very lovely thing to say.

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Pritam Sukumar's avatar

Thank you for sharing these honest and beautiful words, Binu!

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Binu Sivan's avatar

Thanks for reading Pritam. Glad you liked it. :)

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